/sigh — I feel inadequate

My friends mean the world to me, I am blessed to have so many of them. I am really grateful for their friendship, their love and their support. When I have a rough day, someone will notice and try to comfort me. When I doubt myself, someone is there to cheer me up.

You see, my friends’ opinions mean a great deal to me. I have, from the very beginning, wanted people to like me and cherish the time they’ve spent with me. I want to leave nothing but a good impression with them, and have them become my friends.

A friend of mine said something that really hurt my feelings the other day. So much, in fact, that I began to question if I’m at all competent enough to write this diary. If I’m remotely adequate to make a book for my friends. I’ve never been very confident in my writing, so it shouldn’t come as a surprise how much it hurts when a friend makes you feel that what you are doing isn’t good enough.

I know my spelling is off, my sentences could use a lot of work and my vocabulary is rotten. Comments like that, even if they are meant to help, hurts me and makes me even more insecure about my writing.

/cry

In the end I was so hurt—so upset—that I couldn’t bring myself to do a KS99 run with my linkshell.

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lingan
April 18th, 2009
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never doubt yourself. your writing is awsome. i remember when i first found TTO website and i read ur adventure in a dynamis. it was so dramatic i felt like i was reading a screenplay to a movie. at the end i was like… THAT WAS DYNAMIS?? ive done dynamis and its never been that awsome. :)

anyway keep up the good work and remember…there will always be haters…but if you werent doing well, why would they hate ~^

Galadrial
April 18th, 2009
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I am truely sorry if i hurt your feelings at all, the comment was in no way intended to hurt you or cause you any upset. i agree totally with lingen, you are very talented in your writing, and i look forward everyday to see what new adventures you have. please accept this as my unreserved honest apology for upsetting you and i look forward to reading many more of your adventures

Anexia
April 18th, 2009
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Kimi, I LOVE your writings–you are such a talented author. In my college, young adults who’ve spoken/written English their entire lives couldn’t hold a candle to anything you write (pretty sure I saw somewhere that English wasn’t your first language? If not, eep! and don’t mind me!)

Hearing anything negative from a good friend, even if it wasn’t meant to be mean, is no fun to hear, but you truly are a great writer.

Calaera
April 18th, 2009
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I think what is important is how you can improve your writing. Everyone can still improve, and authors still often change their writing as they gain more experience or get more feedback. No one is perfect. You have a good base and a good following, but also take what your friend said and know he wants you to be better. :) Working on improving your writing is always something to strive for just like it is for a piece of equipment or whatever in the game! That isn’t to say negative comments doesn’t hurt; it always does. But I think it should also be a positive experience that should help in the long run instead of be a detriment to your writings in the future.

Sparroweye
April 18th, 2009
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Hey Kimi, just so you know, your writing technique is better than most who have English as a first language. Keep up the good work ok ^^. Just like very new adventure is better because of the experiences of the past, so are your stories. I’m always looking forward to the next one!

Nicia
April 20th, 2009
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Im with Spar :) You have a wonderful talent and certainly are not afraid to express it. I admire and enjoy it very much. Never let anyone stand in the way of letting your creativity flow Miko! :::huge hug:::

Jaisawn
April 20th, 2009
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Kimi,

Your writing is great! Reading your adventures makes me want to run home from work and log on everyday. O.O

Whether comments were made intentionally or not, you just have to keep your head up high and keep writing. keep in mind… your writing inspires 99% of us. And that is what you can be proud of.

~Jaisawn (Odin)

Elmoz
April 21st, 2009
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Ya I <3 your blogging style.

Dartvalince
April 21st, 2009
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Your style of writing is one that has inspired me to start it back up. I always wanted to document my adventures as more of a story, rather than a blog of the things I accomplished/rants/etc. I’ve always found your stories to be splendid.

My descriptions/grammer/spelling/vocab isn’t something I’ve too good at, but you have to remember to keep going. There are always going to be things like this that get in they or could upset you, but you have to continue to be true to yourself and do what you enjoy doing.

Tiffyblueeyes
April 26th, 2009
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i also agree with Spar :) keep you head held high kimi!!!

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